Looking for the Sunrise

There is just something about a Friday. The work week ends... It's payday... the weekend is here! And it's my favorite kind of weekend. I can do whatever I want for two whole days. No plans, no trips, no meetings... just 48 hours of so of whatever. And it looks like the weather will be perfect for playing outside. Yaay! This has been a good week. It may sound silly but I have heard myself laugh this week. I haven't truly laughed for years it seems. Nervous laughter, yes but laughing because something strikes me as funny... I don't do that so much. This week I have and I have been goofy. I feel like I have won a battle. It's ok to be joyful. I can laugh and tease and be silly. It feels like I am truly reconnecting the dots of who I am. I am thankful. And ready to move on to the next steps of reconnecting with my self and with my God. My soul is thirsty for His presence and that is a good thing. Happy Friday! Enjoy the week-end!

The last few days have been splendid... really and truly! Thursday I was able to clear the muck out of one of my three flower beds and discovered many tulip and iris shoots :) The plus 22 weather was wonderful! Friday was another really warm day and both Em and Bren had the day off of school, I only had one baby to watch and so the girls did most of my job and I was able to accomplish a lot. I deep cleaned my kitchen and re organized a few cupboards and then I took a break to enjoy the fabulous weather with the girls at the park. The sunshine did my heart and skin some good! I forgot to take my camera though... boo. Friday night Bobby and I went to a Brent Butt concert. We laughed and had fun. The night eneded with us picking Anna up from a babysitting job and looking for the back to her cell phone in the pouring COLD rain! We had a good laugh... and looked like drown rats to boot! Sat was pretty cold and icky out but the girls and I did a major house clean getting ready for our

It's pretty evident that I am terrible at creating a new habit... Doesn't matter if it's blogging, walking, bible reading... I am great for about one week and then life gets in the way and I let go of creating the new habit... sigh guess I just have to keep on trying :) So what's going on in my world? My head is full of ideas and I want to express them but not too mnay thoughts are getting from head to keyboard to computer screen... arrgg I am actually in a pretty good place emotionally. I feel pretty stable most days. I have moments of crazy and moments of overwhelming sadness but for the most part I am good. I'm sleeping better than average and my dreams are pleasant. I had a dr.'s appt today that revealed I do in fact have gallstones. Dr is not pushing for surgery at this point for which I am grateful. We are having company for supper on Sat so I really need to get my house cleaned up. Friday will be the big push I think for getting ready for company. Th

I've been thinking about this word a lot for the last few days. Perspective changes everything. How we percieve any action or event shapes our days, our life even. We can choose to be a victim or a voictor. We can choose to see the good or the bad. Take this past weekend. brenna came in last for her synchro figures again... she has placed last all season. BUT she improved her personal best by almost 7 points so it is a success. Her team placed last in the routine portion but they improved their score by almost 20 points so it is a success. I am amazed at how often my perception is negative. It is so easy to see the bad, to expect the worst, to be disappointed. I like to think I am a positive person but so often I am not but I can choose to be. Instead of seeing the bad I shall look for the good. The other thing that really made me think about this was, of all things, a Kenny Roger song... if you haven't listened to it lately or ever... check out   http://www.youtube.com/wa

I just have a brief moment before I have to go pack for the synchro meet in Winnipeg. I just took some time to reread a few of my old blog posts (from the other blog)... I wrote a lot better a couple of years ago! Haha! I'm glad I have a record of that time in my life though. It's good to be reminded of how God has worked in my life in the past. I also took some time to read the comments and I'm thinking maybe I should finally put this blog out there for my friends to find... I am excited/nervous for this weekend. I am going to my first meet alone as in Bobby isn't coming with me. It's just me and Brenna and every other member of the Mermaids that are competing. We're taking a bus and having a team weekend. It should be fun but I'm kinda nervous about not having Bobby with me. We so rarely travel apart from each other. I depend on him for a lot of things and I just like having him there. He is so good at keeping me level. He brings balance to my crazy head

Again not much to really write about today so shall list off some 'thankfuls' 1) That I have succesfully done 3 days of the bible reading plan! and I am learning I didn't know as much as I thought I did :) I may not be up and going walking yet but I am reading so yay! 2) For daughters that will talk to me about anything. How I pray that never stops! 3) That it is less than 4 months until bible camp season! LBC and KLBC, here I come! 4) A wonderful mama and papa who still love each other after 47 years and one day :) 5) The joy that comes with spring just around the corner.

I kind of feel like I am standing behind a waterfall when I have a headache like today's headache, can't quite make out what's in front of me! ... So no walk for me this morning but I DID start my reading plan before I even got out of bed. Praying the headache lets up and I can enjoy this day instead of slogging through it. No big plans, just watching the babes and getting my kids where they need to be when they need to be there. I like to do that with a spirit of joy but the fog of a headache can sure make that difficult!

I feel like I have taken a drink from this beautiful river of pure mountain water today. Mom, Brenna and I found this beautiful beach along a river in the Rockies on our way home last fall. I could have stayed there for ever. I felt such joy while we we there walking in the ice cold water til my feet were numb, wondering what animal left which set of tracks. Looking for the perfect rock that had been battered by the waters to become a polished stone fit to take home to forever remember that place and that feeling. This picture reminds me that though my heart feels battered and bruised, it is because God is polishing me into a beautiful gemstone.  Church was kind of like that this morning. It was a turning point kind of day. I went to bed last night knowing I needed to go to Sunday School this morning and I'm so glad I did. A couple planning on going into the mission field this fall was there to share with us. I haven't had an instant connection with someone like I did this m

Guess I didn't do so well at blogging everyday... Thursday and Friday were really rough days, nothing in particular just darker than normal. Figuring out how to manage our budget will do that to me... BUT today is a new day. My laundry from last week is all folded and ready to be put away (just in time to start on this week's launndry!) Made bacon and waffles for the girls for a Sat brunch and am now off to see my hubby at work to enjoy lunch with him. This week I need to start being more intentional about quite a few things... It is way too easy for me to become overwhelmed with life and fall into a pattern of just exsisting and not really coping with anything. It is time to establish some good patterns in my life. So I will wake up a little earlier, spend some time studying God's Word (BEFORE I check into FB!), I would like to start walking again but it is hard to find the time as I start babysitting at 7:30 am... not quite enough hours in the morning and my nights are